July

Okay, the day came I got on the scale and guess what? Yep, that is right, I made my goal. Under 240 for July 1st. So now I am thinking about the 1st of August. Wish I could say I am getting tons of exercising, NOT! It is so hot, I just don't. Know I should, but don't. I can think of lots to do and have been working with a set of 5lb dumb bells. Thankfully one of my kids left at home when they went off to "other" places.

Loosing weight, when you have carried it as long as I have is hard freaking work. No one really cares if you do or don't. Note to self: hubby cares very much but with a great wisdom (not common in the male of the species) keeps his mouth shut. The only one that I am accountable to is myself. I find myself wanting ice cream and cold juices and soda. Knowing that I can have a bit of ice cream or sherbet, some frozen fruit is making me happy at this time. I am staying away from soda. Coke products are my nemesis. It is heard. So what do I do? Drink my water, read, and write. Oh and I put parental controls on my Warcraft account.

You can ask why and you'd be right to wonder. Why does a sixty + year old woman put parental controls on of all things a freaking Warcraft account? Cause my husband likes to play and it's something, besides books and food we can share. I digress, I ramble, yes I know. I get too involved with the game. The graphics are awesome, the dungeons and quests are fun, and we run a guild with some really cool people, of which I am probably close to being the oldest. Though one of our guild owners is probably pushing a close second. When I start dreaming about it, like all things, it's time to ease back.

My novel is stalled cause I just don't feel like writing lately. I have read at least fifteen new books (new to me) in June, maybe more. That much I am sure of. All of this keeps me sitting on my ass. Bad thing SOA, very bad. So I limit my playing but not the reading or writing; if I feel so inclined.

August, what to aim for in August. I do NOT want to loose weight so fast it jumps back on me, so I have to be careful. At the currant rate I should be able to be 230 or a little less on August 1st. I'll take what ever I can get.

Fourth of July should be interesting. I got a nice t-bone Him can grill and some corn and squash. I have found I don't really have to eliminate anything, if I remember to eat small potions (not restaurant sized). So we grill one steak and I eat about a third and He eats the rest. I can have a baked potato, though I stay away from fries. Like Coke, they are my nemesis.

We are in for another full week of 90+ temps and the fires sometimes worry me. You go to bed and wake up every day with the smell and smoke lingering in the air. There is nothing to do for it, but to wait mother nature out. Drink lots, lots, and lots of water. I dehydrate a lot quicker and if I am not careful, I get muscle spasms in my legs...hello charlie horse. Pain, pain, and pain. Drink the damn water, walk when I can and take the camera everywhere.

Loosing weight, learning to live with just me and him. Re-evaluating my cooking and eating habits, (hard on a native born Florida cracker); all in all.....live is good. 

This is why I have been soooo slack on my posting, just tired, tired and hot. AC bugs the hell out of my sinus' so a fan and a little spritz bottle are my "personal" form of ac.


On a good note though here is my June 24th weigh in <hamster dance>

I honestly feel like I'll make <240 by July 1st. Of course the weather is being a hellish helper in that I don't feel like eating anything and just drink a lot of water. Sunday Steve was a doll and grilled us a t-bone steak, this is what a <500 calories Sunday dinner looks like...

Now wipe the drool off your keyboard.



 On a different note, I have just added two new authors to my Kindle, Mac Wheeler at http://rmacwheeler.blogspot.com/ and JC Simmons http://www.smashwords.com/profile/view/jcsimmons....Mac writes paranormal thrillers and JC Simmons writes the most delicious books that thrill me of Travis McGee flavor. Do yourself a favor and when it's too hot to exercise your body, for gods sake at least exercise your mind. Both of these guys will give you ample reading for your buck.

First book of the Jay Leicester series, there are ten right now. No order really, they read fine in any sequence. If you like John D. MacDonald, JC is right up your ally. I am a big fan of fine wine, flying and sailing. I too read books over and over. Unlike Jay Leicester, I have embraced the electronic age and carry my Kindle or smartphone (with Kindle app) everywhere I go.

This is the first book in the Black Lake series by Mac Wheeler, I hope he forgives me if I leave off the R. I just started these. I am a big fan of Warcraft, it is my "entertainment" besides reading. I think I am going to enjoy these, a lot. I use Orcs, Trolls, Fae, and Elves in my own stories so I love to read others. Being a book of shorties to introduce you to the races and their involvement with each other, it is a perfect, waiting book. You know what I mean, waiting in some line, somewhere bored out of your mind. Put this on your Kindle or phone and escape.


So that's my week, hot enough to fry outside, but it's been dry so not too bad. Weights still dropping and thank you Universe for letting me discover "new" reads. Thanks for visiting and please come on back.

I did my Sunday weigh-in yesterday. I really wasn't sure if I lost anything till I got on scale. The image speaks for itself. Almost a full three pounds. OMG! I was babysitting this weekend, I didn't eat like I usually do, this was taken right after I ate dinner.

It is really hard, cause the first thing I want to do is weigh myself every damn day. I know exactly how that would go. I get discouraged really easy. For the first month or so I was eating 1800 calories, then I dropped it to 1500 calories. Now I am trying to find a comfortable level somewhere around 1200. I know if I can stay at 1200 and get on the "ugly" bike a few times a week, I will continue to loose weight. My schedule right now is to weigh myself Sunday evening wearing the normal clothes I always wear. So far, so good.

I had pizza Friday night and soft shell tacos Saturday night and I still lost weight. The key is moderation, and leave the "kiddie" snacks alone. I am still drinking around 120 ozs of water a day and staying away from soda and other stuff. I do drink sweet tea, occasionally and lemonade once in a while.

Do you have any idea how hard it is to get them to bring you a "glass of water...NO ice" in a restaurant? Very. Only once or twice has a wait person got it right. Usually they just bring me water with ice, which I do NOT want with my food. The water from the soda dispensers is cold. I guess I'll just start taking my h2o bottle where ever I go. If people don't like, they can kiss by phat arse.

Sunday weigh-in or OMG I lost some weight

So you know I am beyond fighting the bulge, that ship sailed almost thirty (30) years ago. In 1986 my late husband asked me to get up on the feed wagon at the farm we worked at and see if the auger was stuck. I didn't know he had already checked the weight of the feed. So he did a little math and found out I weighed 235lb. I worked hard every day. I milked around two hundred head a day, cleaned the parlor twice, helped feed, hauled stuff you would not believe and had no problem sitting down in a restaurant with cow manure on my clothes. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I really think my main problem in my life (besides the caboose) is I have moved from a tropical climate to a cold one, changed lifestyles drastically, several times over my life. I have eight children and have had four partners. But I have worked, dammit it, a lot.

The last time I was comfortable in my weight was somewhere around 1973. I probably weighed in at 110 soaking wet and walked everywhere. I didn't own a car and didn't have a license. I bought men's 30" waist pants and had to take them in a good inch and a half on each side. I wish I had pictures of me then, but I don't think any exist.

Today I did not, no way, no how want to get on that bike. I did our shopping this morning and hurt from head to toe. I did though and did 2 miles at 17mph. Now I really hurt. My calories have stayed pretty good today and I think I am pretty much on schedule. I usually weigh myself in the evening , but weighed myself a little earlier

 Whoot, whoot....I lost 2lbs this week. If I can get my ass on the bike every day, I should meet my goal of <240 by July 1st. I also did a bit of experimenting with my salads. I don't usually measure my dressings, but today I did

This is a tuna salad and what 4 tbs of dressing looks like. I don't normally put anywhere near this amount on my food. Now I know. This meal was 325 cals and kept me good all day. At dinner I fixed Him and I grilled chicken breasts, white rice, salad and mixed corn and peas. I added that up and it comes to <600...which puts my daily total at 1225. I have drank 8 16oz bottles of water so I think I am doing ok.

Another thing I am going to do is clip my pedometer on my pants every morning and see how far I walk in a day. I used to do about 6-10 miles when I worked but that was hoofing back and forth from end to end in a manufacturing plant many times a day.

Thanks for stopping by, have a good one.

To be or not ro be????

Is a worthy question...yes? Who really in this day and age gives a shit? I did not get on the bike this am and now am going to do this evening. Went for a ride down through Hill City with my HIM. Here I can rant as he sits across the table from me eating friggin grapes...shhhh, I ate my half earlier. It was a nice day, I have pretty much kept to my schedule, got out, ate about 1000 calories, dinner is next and 4-16 oz bottles of water. So I have drank about 1/2 my water and have about 500 calories left for they day. It's Saturday dammit. I am craving pizza.

What I will have is a large salad with mango dressing, 1 hot dog no bread with bbq sauce (lower in cals than mustard or ketchup) and a very small amount of french fries, baked. This is dinner, add a very large salad and ditch the bread.....oh YUMMMM

Now I will get into a rant I have been sorely wanting to do...Hey McDonald's, Wendy's, Burger King, Taco John, Taco Bell and KFC....please tell me why I can't get anything in a size I need. People really look at me funny when I ask for a kids meal. I asked for a small fry the other day and they said...sorry you can't get that in any EVM...thats "Extra Value Meal" folks. They come in medium, large and omfg huge.

Ok so scratch the eat outs. I just buy stuff for home, because anything I eat in any of these places is gonna keep me fat for the rest of my life. Burger King has been my best bet so far. I can order a Whopper, no cheese, no mayo..small fry, small drink...is still about 1040 cals...almost my daily allowance...even a whopper jr. is 790....least they give me for the whole damn meal and don't  make me add it up. Taco John or Taco Bell...taco salad...no dressing, beef..Taco Bell...770...Taco John...540...and they are pretty damn close on taste....since I started being so damn picky on my caloric intake....Taco John has my vote and BK when I need a burger. If I really want those potatoes Taco John has I get a "small" super potatoes ole...even that is 650.

Size portions these days just give me a headache as well as a big ass. I take twice as long to order something, not only does it have to be good, but good for me too. This is why America is so damn fat. Order a supersize, cause you know you need 32 ozs of sugar and 1000 mgs of SALT, and way the fuck too much damn FAT. I wonder sometimes if people even look, cause they sell so damn much of it.

So HIM and I had lunch out today. Chicken salad sandwiches with lettuce and tomato and grapes for snack. I drank water, HIM drank sweet tea. We were out in the sun near the Michelson trail watching people go by. There were six vehicle there with bike racks on them, (no I did not count ours). That was just at the one trail head. Is where I want to ride at least for a year or so. The trail itself is 109 miles. We will see. I suspect this year will be mostly stationary for me and maybe around the local lake parks for the two of us. Next year I am planning some longer rides though.

 This is where we had lunch, about 30 miles from where we live. We sat at the table and talked and dug out the maps for the area. Him has drawn up six trips for the next couple of weeks. All of them hit fishing spots and are good photo shoots for me.
I usually shoot through car windows somewhere between 40 and 70 mph. Sometimes they come out like this

But come on.....55 mph, dirty windshield facing the damn sun....I do a lot of editing after a road trip...sometimes I get really lucky and they look like this

This is out a side window on the 1880 Wine Train. Sometimes it just all comes together. These are mostly with a point and shoot Nikon and my Kodak z981.

So that's my rant for today. Tomorrow is weigh-in. I have use of a digital scale and I use it on Sunday evenings. I weighed 248.2 last Sunday. Lets see how tomorrow goes. Thanks for reading. Chew me a new one if you like, I got a delete button, no worries.

Evening update, had two dogs instead of one. Made my dinner about 600 calories...which put me at about 1900 for the day, a little more than usual, was that damn second dog at 200 cals....but omg it was yummmmm.

Why Phatlady?

Cause at 62 years old, and 248lbs, very small petite frame, five feet zip...is what I am. I got the idea from a lot of blogs out there....39 stone biker, Jack sh*t-Getting fit, lots. Not one of them address the same problems I am faced with.

I look in the mirror and go  "O shit, I am fat." and feel like crying. I am married to a wonderful man (fourth times the charm, right?) who would follow me into Hell if it was my destination carrying a fire extinguisher, while asking me, "Tell me again why we are doing this shit?"

I know there are others out there. There are even some in my acquaintances, friends and family. No one has the problems I have. Duh....cause we are all unique. I wanted a way to keep track of all I am doing, not doing, or just being an asshole about.

Let's get one thing perfectly clear......FOOD in not my problem, or I'd weigh 100lbs and look like Goldie Hawn. My average food intake for as long as I can remember is around 1500-2000 cals a day. It's just how I eat. My problem is mobility and this freaking computer I am so addicted to.

About twenty years ago, I went to martial arts classes with my kids. I also biked to my second job about 6 miles round trip every day. I got down to 180, but most of that was muscles. Then I moved, jobs changed, people died. In a nutshell, my life went to shit.

This is me, now. The soldier beside me is my daughter who just graduated BCT. That is what 248lbs on a five foot frame looks like. <shiver>

My feet hurt, my back hurts, my ASS hurts, you name it, if I got it it hurts; 24/7. I finally decided this has to go. My husband and I bought new bikes. Note to self, "Your fat ass has not been on a bike in 20 years, are you TOTALLY freakin insane?" We got hybrids cause South Dakota has a lot of bike trails including some rails to trails and it was an activity he said he would share with me.

Now the fun part. I have really short legs, my inseam is something 20". I tried to hop right on and ride a woman's 700cc hybrid bike. Fell on my ass, bruised parts I have not bruised in a damn long time. Long story short. I finally did get on the bike, but could only ride it around the driveway. So we snitched, borrowed, stole a mtb from my daughter's backyard. A 26' mtb and I could not get my fat ass on it. I am allowed btw to say fat ass, because it is my fat ass and until it gets a lot smaller...it is my fat ass. If you don't like that, go somewhere else.

When we came back from the above graduation I was determined to do something, even if it was wrong, damn I paid, scratch that...we paid $200 for that "green" bike and I am gonna get my money out of it. Crap I could just fall on the ground and laugh, someone stole my husbands bike. From within 6 feet of my head, they walked off with it. Tried to take mine, but we had the seat as far down as it would go, trying to get it so I could ride it comfortably; they probably couldn't. Police report (we had serial number), pics to same, husband is pissed.

So where from here. I still can't get on my hybrid, nor the mtb. Light bulb moment. I got a stationary adapter for the mtb. I had HIM set my my hybrid for his riding and he does, around the neighborhood. I try and get my big butt on the mtb everyday

This is my current set up. It ain't pretty....but it works. I have to use a little folding stool to get my leg over, but it works. I try to do a mile or more every day @15-18mph. Like I said, it ain't pretty, it ain't much, but by god.....it works. Oh, btw...got a new gel seat so my girlie bits are a touch happier.

So this is it. I put this out here and I gotta do it. Some one, some where will call me on it if I don't. I am limited to what I can do a lot for income reasons, some for physical reasons. I got a bum knee and impacted joints along my right side. My right is really the pits. If I sit for two hours in a chair, I need help getting out, ditto in a car. I can't tie shoes without putting them up on a couch or bed.

Sometimes I just have to grit my teeth and do what it is I have to do. A day without pain and I would check the obits to see if my name was on there.

So this is my plan for the moment. 

1. get 8 hours sleep every night (this is hard because of afore mentioned pain, but we'll see)
2. at least a mile or more every day on ugly bike
3. 120 ounce of water every damn day, so I pee like a race horse, tough.
4. eat breakfast every day, I don't eat eggs, and don't like cereal..is challenge
5. lunch to be heaviest meal..biggest meal..fattest meal, what the hell ever
6. put parental controls on gaming on pc...limit 2 hours nite while watching tv
7. be any where under 240 on July 1st.
8. get off my ass and do something every damn day..is hard cause I write a lot.
9. Writing is no excuse, take the NEO, is what I got for
10. find one at least one beautiful thing everyday and use for morning and evening sitting

So this is IT. This is the plan. Pretty much what I been doing, but I tend to go off and get sidetracked. Is the story of my life.